oh shit! not you again!

2010-05-04T06:27:00.000-07:00

I GOT MY BLOG FIXED PEOPLE!!!! (thanks amanda:D)

Mid-year exam's here again and as usual i'm (not) serious with studies at all though i can do all the sums and sttuff. I mean c'mon, take it seriously for what. Just live life for a while and enjoy. I have little time left then i'd be working my shit off next year till sec 5? yeah, horrible isn't? I can picture how it's like to be those people taking O lvl their like robots being controlled! OH MY GAAWD! I never want to be one of those people dude!
Besides all that crap, I finally paid all my debts!!! I shall be a rich girl again :)
Been hanging out with Azfar , Danial , Hafidz and Prakash lately and for some reasons though i'm the only girl among the gang, i really feel comfortable. We hang out almost everyday studying and improving our pool skills. Prakash (blackbutt) bought his own cue! cool! I can see that my pool skills aren't that bad so i'm starting to bet again, after idunnohowbloodylong i stopped playing. So when my aunt comes back i'll play with her and hopefully she'll allow me to put money on the table! WEE!!!
I Hate art lesson today! the whole class got a non-stop nagging from Mr.Syazwan and OH MY BLOODY GOSH PEOPLE! He's worse than my granny when he nags! You can die or worse, You WILL die! not because he's scary. No he's not scary at all! Because it's really tiring to listen to him! I just realized that lessons could be a bit awkward without seeing bortox! (just being random)
You see? Bortox got so popular cause of me. You shall be honored Ms. "B" hahaha.
I was listening to music just now, i dunno they sound horrible like emotionless. When you're suppose to connect with it. I can't feel anything.. Boring.
I wonder what i should get for my on Mom's day?
I'm obsessed with milk more than ever
See this will happen when you got nothing much to say for the sake of wanting to a long post after days of not blogging, FREAKING RANDOM!
Okay people i shall end my post here :)
Do not cry people :)
I'll be back.
Skipping school tomorrow
Sorry wanqi, i can't walk with you to school :(

2010-04-24T20:49:00.000-07:00

WEEE !!! I"M 16 :D

thanks to all those who wished me happy b-day :D i'm really really happy. My b-day has never been this special and fun with friesnds :D Thanks for all the unique present from kelly, anne, trecia and wanqi :D the G-string and everything was really awesome i know i've said this a million time and again i'll say it .. I REALLY REALLY LIKE IT. and y'all can dream on if you want me to wear it hahaha! jkjkjk maybe someday. :D and also to those who have yet to give me presents and hopefullly it will be a DECENT one! hahahah

FRIDAY

i celebrated my b-day with anne and kelly :D haha it was super super fun !though more than half of my cash burned! hahaha i treat them at pizza hut :D and and and . OH yeah! the funniest part when they asked me to open my present OMG !!! just ask the 2 of them la. Then after our lunch we watched the date night. Steven carrell never failed to make me laugh hahahah.. he's just really really funny :D HAHAHA ZIP YOU VAG!nA haha lols :D

THANKS TO ANNE AND KELLY AGAIN THEY MADE MY B-DAY SPECIAL <3>

SATURDAY

I went out with wanqi and at tampines and they bought me a SUPER DECENT present. No one would ever asked for :D HAHHA just joking. Just ask the 2 of them again what they gave me. But thanks a lot okay? I''ll wear that present when the time is right so for now, the 2 of you dream first hahahah! Then we headed to marina square cause I told wanqi that i wanna celebrate my b-day somewhere far so there. Then maverick came! So awesome! hehehe. The 2 of them are soo fun to hang out with! then we ate at popoyes :D FINALLY!!!!!!

After that we walked back to esplanade and we saw this bamboo place which wanqi's so addicted of, we took lots and lots of pictures there! Oh yeah and some jetty we went to which is also super nice! we camwhore the whole day then we saw JJ yapsheng and darren at marina square while playing pool. WANQI SURPRISED WITH A CAKE! (i was really touched okay!!!) and thanks for smashing it into my face :D hehe.. and also darren yap sheng JJ and maverick who celebrated it with me :D i Feel really happy OH YEAYEAYEA not forgetting about wanqi's sister ! her sister is super super nice ! WEEE i like :D

Oh yeah! and also when i finally got a chance to meet wanqi's family ! Their really really really really AWESOME MAN! i like them a lot . hehehe I had dinner with them and the food was YUMMMYY!!!!!!! i like i like :D hahahah

To wanqi : thanks a lot fat baby :D i enjoyed my b-day a lot mostly cause of you man :D

hahahahahahah I love you too:D

2010-04-07T04:43:00.000-07:00

I hate posting these kind of things, just then i realised that I've been posting lots of this thing. ANGER. I guess here i am free to say what i have to say without anyone stopping me and i don't have to listen to anyone without saying what i want. It helps me to cool down.Vent out anger. I've been really angry lately. my day wouldn't end without getting fucked up. I'm hating lessons so much. I think nowadays teachers are getting older and UNREASONABLE! I hate when they scold without thinking whether they have a point on what their saying. I hate it when they force me to do something i'm not in the mood to do. School isn't really my thing. THAT'S FOR SURE. I come to school for the love of GAWD! NO actually for friends. CCA! and to you this is what i have to say.
"You detain me every reccess, you talk to me when i don't wanna listen, you call my parents after giving me a good scolding. Seems like you can't have enough with all these. Do whatever you want, i'm almost there. Almost there that you might find yourself in a very terrible ending of what i'm gonna do when you wake up. If i can tell you straight in your face not to push me too far, i will. But i feel that this isn't the right time yet. Soon you'll see who i really am when i'm angry.Yes i wen't to the toilet without your permission but that's because i was really thirsty i did that because i want you to see a change in my behaviour if that's what you really want. But no, I explained to you and you made me stand outside like an idiot for the whole period and you dare said that 'I DID NOT SEE A CHANGE IN YOUR BEHAVIOUR AND YOUR OTHER CLASSMATE DID" by saying that, do you think your finding ways to push me forward or pulling me back? Who are you to tell me that, please think befero you say something. I was the one who came to class first among all those who came later. And again, i was standing outside the staffroom. Because of that you even made me angrier. You don't see a change in behaviour that's because i was stading right outside while you're teaching the fuckng class. So tell me how can you even see? But if you listened and let me in, things wouldn't turn another way round. because of the 2 of you i hate school!!!!! I would drop out to really focus on what i want. But for the sake of my loved ones i'd stay but fuck! never push me anymore further! If you do not wish to speak to me again! FUCK OFF BITCH!!!

LASTLY, I wish my dad HAPPY B-DAY! i love you dad<3 :D

2010-04-03T04:52:00.001-07:00

YEAH YEAH YEAH! EVERYTHING BAD THAT HAPPENS WILL ALWAYS START WITH ME! ISN'T IT MUCH BETTER IF I KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT? YEP I THINK I JUST FOUND THE RIGHT WAY TO A PEACEFUL FAMILY. HAVE FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY NOW?

2010-04-01T05:49:00.000-07:00

NOBODY WANTS TO SEE YOU FATTY FACE!
I hate it when you freaking show you attitude. You're just a wanna be! You will never ever fit in to be ***** i'm not gonna say names or whatever i think it childish. Scold all you want. Shout all you want. Punish all you want. Please take note of this and print this in your skull! I'M NOT GONNA LISTEN TO YOU FOR WHETHER I DID SOMETHING RIGHT OR WRONG. How i wish you'd change! But by just looking at you and you freaking behaviour. Your hopes are down low! Lower than a solid ground. I've been really trying to hide everything, showing you attitude in class is just my first step. There's more to come if you push me too far. If you choose to continue treating us like this, its gonna be nice ending for both of us especially for you. Don't put people through a test, you don't freaking know what we're or i'm capable of. I'm sure you're gonna hate, you'll curse me! We may look fine when you're there but the thing is that WE'RE not! Want us to show it to you? Nope, not yet. I'm warning you its gonna be a tight slap in the face. At this point of time, you may still consider me nice. Wait till you see the bad side of me. It might make you cry in front of the class! Remember, don't spur me on! Fuck off. I've never been this pissed to someone like you. You're really unique aren't you?

2010-03-29T04:21:00.000-07:00

BlOoDy DaY! :l

I didn't blog for... god knows how BLOODY long... (request by chaower)
so here i'm just gonna update what happened these days.

So during sports carnival, i didn't really played games. I cheated and thanks to syahir the super honest student councillor i know in school. I actually wanted to play some games but i only got to play basketball? yup only basketball. I got a bronze trophy-.-" but all and all i think sports carnival was MAD AWESOME! no classes at all you can go to anywhere at anytime you want in school. How i wish school rules are like that. Or maybe yes, but NO. just fantasies ! Oh yeah not forgetting about the dentist that freaking dentist who put a whole in my tooth! I saw the destist during sports carnival i don't know i didn't think twice i ran to him and scold him! NONONO just joking of course haha! when i came in to his office i was like "do you remember me?" and he goes "yesyesyes!" then he kept on apologising for not telling me about the other dentist that i was refered to and i waited for so long-.- and apparently mom got angry :( not with me but with him. haha. So anyway since he doesn't have that thing that suppose to be injected in my gum i have to wait around this week or so he said he'll give me a sms or a call i think? whatevery.

So after sports carnival Anne Kelly and I watched "when in rome" and i think its sort of nice to watch? But its more of comeedy than romance.

(SATURDAY)
I went for A camp again and this time it's big ! really big camp. because it's for the performing arts people in school. I FREAKING HATED IT! I misssed the games! i WANT games! i came late thats why i missed the almost half of the camp. During the rehearsal i guess was the most fucked up part of the whole camp almost everyone had mood swings. Its all those bloody teachers who are involved excluding mrs mak (she is super nice) I think there more of like trying to add stress on us and make us explode. HOW MUCH MORE THE TEACHERS CAN BE BLOODY FOOLS!? esp that VP who thinks she's trying to help but no.. SHE DIDN'T DO NOTHING TO HELP! she just walked around scolding people rather than keeping her mouth shut while riding a pony and sucking a lollipop! The more she opens her mouth the more i find her unreasonable brainsless VP so please if she doesn't have anything nice to say i just wish she doesn't open her mouth! Then i was like " JUST GO HOME AND TAKE CARE OF YOUR BLOODY CHILDREN LA!"
Zzzzz -.-!

(TODAY)
Was rather fucked up day. We did the project like super last minute. At the end of the day we've done almost nothing besides the fact that we did interview a few of people or CHILDREN outside the school. We argue here and there and i alost wanted to walk out during that time. I think Syahir and Azfar was the one to help me vent out my anger! i was so damn pissed cause prakash and me argue almost at everything during the project. But after all we're still goodfriends haha we walked in the rain (daniyal prakash and me) and yeah i reached home now blogging
OKAY
i guess till here.... BE going now bye!

2010-03-13T23:47:00.000-08:00

THE WORLD'S GREATEST LIAR....
is me, well imma skip chuch today and will continue doing till i get enough. But i'll pray everyday everynight don't worry.Before my mom left she told me to go to church with my sis. Luckily i came up with this plan: i phone daphne and she's stuck at home right now i'm going to her place later at 5 and gossip till maybe 8 so this not so smart bro and mom of mine won't suspect that i'm on to something stupid haha. Am i clever for the world or what? Can't believe its holiday! and my sched is freaking hectic so byebye to all my plans! there's just so many projects we have to do and as a leader, I DON'T GIVE A SHIT! oh holy crap, not forgetting that camp we're having on friday ! But as long i can get my 12 hours of sleep i'm fine. Ohwells, seems like that person don't give much shit to me which i'm so totally happy about. YAY! i don't like repeating things again and again so yeah i hope she won't talk to me or whatever crap. I'm obsessed with movies right now since there's nothing left for me to do at home! but i can't think of anymore "nice" movies to watch so suggestion anyone?

2010-03-13T00:31:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTDAY TRECIA YAP! :D
(talk more haha you're so quiet! i really enjoy time with you, you're quiet but really fun to be with! happy sweet 16:D )

sorry to the 2 girls if i make the 2 of you cry its not that i'm treating y'all like dogs i'm just so damn pissed cause really the whole card thing wasn't my fault. Its a long story. Except for one person-.- Zzzz...

2010-03-12T04:18:00.000-08:00

WEEEE :D:D:D

Today's like super awesome, it happens once in while so i really enjoy and minute today. We organized a farewell party for aloysius which turned out pretty well. Oh yeah! not forgetting to celebrate Shafinaz birthday with a piece of cake for her haha ! HAPPY BIIRTHDAY SHAFINAZ! and then during LIT we took pictures ate cake and then off to the toilet to PARTY!! During english lesson wtih had presentation to do with achoo and bortox 585931 hahah that's bortox code buahaha! well no one will understand so never mind. But i really enjoy ENG lessons now since i'm sitting next to a hillarious guy and with another 2 guys sitting right behind so thanks for giving me the best seat in class! hahaha! how i wish we never have to change! (PLS PLS PLS!) syahir and i kept on making funny sound for bortox and ahCHOO!! which is super duper funny i can't help laughing! haha during form teachers period, we had early release cause we have to go for saxophone workshop which is a waste of enery but the way there was fun and i think the saxophonist is AWESOME ! he plays like kenny G (world class saxophonist) but its tiring to bring instruement to novena (yamaha) but there's like yamaha branches around tampines parkway area there! Thanks to that botak jones! i swear I'll make that bald headed guy to pay! OMG! but its really fun! how i wish to have another outing with saxophone! their AMAZING!! we all are actualy (esp me!) haha so i i guess i'll be going now and bathe! bye homies!

2010-03-08T06:34:00.000-08:00

In order for the light to shine so brightly, the darkness must be present.

OH MY GOD! I need a life, I need courage, I need hapiness and mos importantly i need a fucking job! Seems like its getting really fuckng hard for me to get on with my fucking life. Just when my problem are about to fucking end another fucking scenario comes in. But its really sad that its fucking affecting my family. First it all started with my fucking self i was being rebellous yeah i was so fucking down when everyone found out all the fucking stupid things that i've done. I cant tell the secong reason right now cause its really fucking sad. But yet i've left no more tears to fucking cry. What my dad told me today fucking made me stunned and deep deep deeply sad! :( ....

But what the hell choice do i have left? i have to accept these fucking things again and get on with it. But fuck i'm getting burned already. i'm so fucking tired facing all these. How i wish we all don't have to fucking go through this. Another thing when *HE* told me about that i was so fuckng shock no words can escape my fucking lips. I'm so tired! i need a fucking sleep and a fucking miracle!

2010-02-28T06:33:00.000-08:00

Before anything else, i wanna wish anneehh babeh... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! anne don't worry i know that you expect present.. YES! its on the way just wait i little while babe! one thing's for sure .. YOU WON"T GET OVER IT! muahaha!!! i oh-so like your hyperness and craziness and your humour! pls don't change! but don'tbe quiet it makes me scared haha!

I should remember what happened yesterday. No probably its gonna be stuck in my head till i grow up ! If it wasn't because of that kind-hearted police i would have spent my 48 hrs in jail! or maybe in girls home.? whatever. he let me off because he said i look kind-hearted haha..

i guess that's all i wanna say.. bye peeps

2010-02-15T04:55:00.001-08:00

If you can't appreaciate small things....

what is wrong with you? just because i didn't manage to go to church you'll give me this kind of treatment? are you out of your mind or what? even dad appreaciates it a lot, at least i got a kiss from him! But what about you? its like when he wanted to show you the valentine card i made for the 2 of you, you wanted to tear it in front of my face! you even scold me vulgarities.. if that's what i'm gonna get back from you..dont even expect any cards from me! your calling me a spoiler? oh right ! yeah i'm a spoiler so? tight slap in the face huh? if i knew this is whats gonna happen i should've included dad's name in that effing card only! you know i wanted to cry that night? but i really did cry! because of you, instead of you forgiving me because i'm a "spoiler" you made situations turn ugly! and now what you're gonna give me silent treatment? you're so short tempered !

2010-02-06T05:42:00.000-08:00

10.40 am, Anne called me she wants to hang out with me and she gave me about 40 mins to get my ass ready. She said she wants me to be at tanah merah by 11.15.. but it took me more than and hour to get ready so i was late for about half an hour . So basically i went out with anne and kelly to tampines mall. So fun (no pics)! Anne is always super hyper her laughter's like a broken alarm clock or maybe that chicken that me and kelly saw that has very irriting sound when you press the stomach. and oh yeah i treat anne her lunch for being half an hour late... Anne bought that horny card for somebody. haha. and asked me to pay for it to the cashier luckily that cashier lady didn't give the "why are you so horny?" look.whatever! THANKS ANNE! i wouldn't do that for you if i don't love you baby! muahahah! and yeah, we bumped into this guy.. he's effing rude can? okay let me tell you.. we went to arcade and play car racing. no we were the first one who came and play. and then this guy was suddenly pissed off with us we didn't know we versus him. which i think he didn't like... he shouted at us he told us not to play.. like hellooo.. you don't own a thing there! so will you please behave yourself you're not the boss okay? so what if you're money wasted? what about ours? so what if we are lousy? you're also very lousy okay distance was like so near only.ZZzzz.. i don't wanna see you face even though i don't remember you're face! hammer head!!! booger face! bugs bunny!!! wait.. bugs bunny? okay what am i saying.. i think i have mad cow disease right cow! oh oh i mean RIGHT NOW! muahaha!

2010-02-02T04:49:00.000-08:00

Time and time again....

My dad said there's no way that you can stop history from repeating itself again and again. I don't know maybe this is how god wants me to live my life. There must be love pain and sorrows, but the good about this is that i'll be able to find myself. Maybe, just maybe i don't know much about myself yet but is it me? whos trying hard not to know who i really am? or maybe its others. I'm becoming more and more sensitive now when it comes to "this" things because i went through it before. my heart has been torn apart many times yes i can put back the pieces together but the scar will remain there forever untill it finally breaks. i'm scared i'm really scared that "it" will happen again. The signs are making me weak the more i think about it that i'll just stand aside and give up even though it hasn't started yet. I consider myself as a loner now, a loner that has many friends. But if i'm down who am i to run to them and break down. The teacher always advice me to run to my family, but when i run to them i feel like they don't even have ears to listen to me ! My dad, my mom, my sis and especially my bro. mom and dad would always give advice, sis will always say that my problems are childish, my bro hates me... I've lend ears, hands and a shoulder to my friends and soak their tears without asking for something in return. But now where did they all go? i've no stable friends i really don't have any right now. am i being a emotional person or what? No but i can easily break down i'm most sensitive when it comes to friends. Even if they made me really angry as long as i heard a simple sorry from them it can make my jump for joy. I'm trying hard to be hard on them sometimes when their taking advantage on me. Help me god!

i've been such a rebellious child, i lied to my parents to protect friends though some might not even know about it. But above all these i hope my brother will love me. I miss him. I hope we are small kids forever, cause when we were... he's the sweetest brother ever he wakes me up everymorning cuddle me anything he can do to make me feel better and as i type this tears are running down my face

Had band today and i'm enjoying band now. But i still hate lessons though i don't know i can't seem to concentrate in class. but the good thing is that i can pass all the test now and hand in my homeworks. haha! I love school cause of band and i hope band loves me to. oh yeah happy b-day to yijun! i really hope that you like what i gave you though it took you forever to open it. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIJUN! I WANT TO SEE YOU SMILE ALL THE WAY!!!!!!!! you're friends really care about you!

2010-01-30T19:50:00.000-08:00

i'm just home, stuck here. Nothing to do, stuck with mom and brother. I don't know their both in a bad mood, i'm supposed to go out with mom and dad yesterday and i didn't like what i'm wearing i kept on complaining about it and yeah, my mom asked me to go home. -.-". That's why up to now she's still in a bad mood she's not even talking to right now! AWESOME! -.- Well i guess that's my nature , if i really don't want something, you can't force me to have it. I hate poeple who force to do something, especially when its not my thing! When are you people going to realize that?! ARGH! and one more thing, I can't believe my bro's studying! haha:) happy for him well at least he can concentrate even if he can see my face haha! i've been working out lately. i don't know, it feels good... AND YEAH uhm finally..........

i've got nothing much to say. i hate singing and so as dancing but i love band haha! OH MY GOSH WHATS HAPPENING TO ME? i'm so effin retarded and random okay now i'm really gonna go! bye

2010-01-24T06:24:00.000-08:00

home sucks and so does my life..

hey homies, i had a kick ass time since yesterday... WASN'T HOME! best words since yesterday! cause i went out with band mates(trecia, anne, willie, yijun) hmm.. its good to keep my weekends in a "WASN"T HOME" manner, i barely spend my weekends out. but if i stay home i'd die more and more everyday! anyway, yesterday i went to tampines mall with bandmates its so fun so buy somethng i can't say it here or else... S-O-M-E-B-O-D-Y's gonna getta bashing from someone haha. seems like i'm really enjoying time with trecia and anne should spent more time with them out. and oh yeah, i was late for an hour yesterday (sorry trecia for waiting) she's pissed i can tell haha. but i pay back i treat her famous amos butterscotch cookie and chicken teriyaki for anne for spraying her after shave cream which i thought supposed to be liquid! *GAH* and then i went home back to normal -.- (HELL)

But today, i went out again with daphne and my sister t'was fun.... fun fun fun! we went to botanic garden to take pictures hmm... but i'm jelous, the two of them are pretty good in photography. we had picnic there too but whether's pretty much hot today but pics we're FANTABULOUS! love 'em...

well i guess i'll be going to sleep now i'm just tired and sleepy

2010-01-21T07:16:00.000-08:00

i these new guys

Had fantabulous time in band just now :D THE JUNIORS CAME! they're awesome! we played games and shouted so loud when we welcome them did after that Mr Fahmi started talking to juniors around 3 o r4 till 6! So, we started telling jokes around with anne wanqi maverick linus willie and of course trecia. Soo FUNFUNFUN! haha our jokes are so L but then funny i can't help laughing with them. Then anne did something sexy she seduced heng long its do darn FUNNY.. but... i've never seen the band major laugh and roll on the floor(trecia) she was crying already! muahaha! then walked back home with wanqi we took the longer route back home (tiring-.-).

Reached home almost around 7 pm then rest then i went to bedok to buy some things.On the way back home i saw some familliar guys then i walked towards them T'was hisham taufiq and kit. they're the cool guys i met i knew all of them before but not till this day we talked lots and lots. hisham had to leave early so left with kit and taufiq... i've never seen a guy talked like kit before he's really cool man. he talked very mature i know i could trust him and so as taufiq and hisham. Even though its our first time we talked together they guarantee me that i'll never be lonely with them! they're fantabulous !

2010-01-17T03:45:00.000-08:00

even if i could turn back time, its too late now. just a little too late....

school's getting boring day by day but thanks to my friends(the only reason why i come to school.... EVERYDAY! including studies) i hate my form teacher she's so sensitive so irritating every science lesson i could sleep! argh!!!!!! and oh yeah she's show off too... i just hate her. i don't want her, her face her voice eveything about her. if i could just turn back the time, i would work my ass like shit just to get to a good class at least i always knew i can i guess the old saying is true that regrets would always be in the end! how i wish i'd listen to my teachers and parents... and another ugly truth is that i'm stuck in that class with people i'm not really comfortable with... argh!! >.< *sighs* and one more thing I LOVE MY CCA 16.01.10
yes yes yes its official no more quiting... now they're happy o now they should be HAPPY!! LALALA!
BYEBYEBYE mad mad mad world
wait- listen to the song called fireflies by owl city its nice. :)(:

update

2010-01-04T03:54:00.000-08:00

hey homies, updating my blog cause i'm bored to death

okay so here's what happened last week my grandma and aunt came to celebrate christmas and new year with us. We spent lots of time shopping and taking pics and planned my sis's 17th b-day. Unfortunately, we didn't celebrete her b-day on the day itself cause we decided to celebrate new first then my sister's b-day and the saddest part was she didn't her celebrate her b-day with my aunt and grandma. and oh yeah jordan celebrated christmas with us ! I'm currently working at burger king i'm still confuse when i take the cashier, i could tell my first day totally messed up spilled drinks forget about what costumers order key in the wrong order and all other craps. Its so tiring still not used to it. i don't wanna be a quitter!! NO!!! i just wanna feel the feeling of getting something you worked so hard for! hmm.. tomorrow there's band i wonder how i'd face my seniors and tell them i'm gonna quit... D: i need some time to think over it again again and again... whatever!!!

2009-12-23T04:50:00.000-08:00

autobio! autobio! autobio!
hey found this cool autobio that i can fill in

Name: arrys louvelle santiago
Nickname:love, louie (why ask this question?)
B-day:25/04/94
SIBLNGS
Name:denijah rhys santiago/jeconiah erleon santiago
B-day:30/12/92 18/12/91
PARENTS
Name:pinky/rey
B-day:?/?
ABOUT ME
Religion:christian (except weekends :)) haha
Favourite food:anything except pig..
Favourite colour:GREEN
Favourite animal:guinea pigs, dog cats
Likes: i like nature, animals, christmas, not so crowded places FRIENDS FRIENDS, my humor, nice clothes though i don't dress nice nice one most of the time, exotic foods!
Dislikes: HORROR movies, naggs, judgemental people. eating pigs,
Crush:ask me for it! haha
Boyfriend:never had one b4
First date: friendly date :) but its a secret
First kiss: FLOOR! (when i landed on the floor while running when i was a baby muahaha)
Unforgettable time: none for whether its ugly or beautiful day
Unforgettable date:" " " " " " "
Goals: get good grades, and oh yeah ASTRONOMER ( its my dream)

CHRACTER (at least 200 words or more)
I'm a very stubborn person and because of this nature of mine sometimes i lose opportunities. i like living life in a easy way and sometimes i can be a little too lazy in which my mom gets pissed most of the time. i love my family. i'm outgoing person. I love my friends i don't care about the closeness as long as i can brightened up someone's day i have a great sense of humour too! haha! Its not that hard to make friends with me because i don't judge people by just looking at them i let their behaviour speak for themselves only then i could tell cause i believe only god can judge! i don't lose my patience easily and i can bare with something for as i can. i am a caring friend and can be really really reliable, trustworthy. But i can't be forced on the things i don't want if you can, i'll be your fan! hahaha lols. i don't like poeple who push me too far, cause when i'm provoked beyond my limits sometimes i can be violent, scary hor? haha moreover i want friends to stick with me when i'm in trouble! haha that's all loh and i thank god that atleast i have common sense ! buahahahah!! because most of the time my mind is full of crap. But i thank those people who accept me for who i am and cause of that i simply love and respect them! yeah;) thats all about me.. bye bye i so sleepy now... ZZZzzzzz hahaha

2009-12-22T21:33:00.000-08:00

people you're linked. and uh.. nothing much to say.. haha.. bye bye

ppl i love...

2009-12-09T19:17:00.000-08:00

yesterday, out to meet jordan and amirah to watch new moon. and as promised jordan bought tickets for me and hotdog... new moon was okay. heard a lot of peepo say that the ending part sucks. for me its ok.. cause i read the book i know whats gonna happen next, bella's gonna marry edward after she graduate from high school... and whatsoever.. and there'll be a war between the vampires and the cullens but warewolf pack is gonna be united to the cullens and beat victoria and blah blah..
haha doesn't mean this topic will be about them haha.. after that we went to yamaha music shop and head to toys r us... and went home.. haha btw..

to jordan: haha thanks for letting me listen to your recorded songs haha you sang okay... except that your more like saying a poem because your pitch doesn't change and notes are also constant muahaha.. so funny

ppl like you...

2009-12-08T19:32:00.000-08:00

when we have friends, aren't they suppose to be the one who we can run to when we're having trouble? like someone running to her friends and tell them his/her prob. Before that person say something like ppl bringing up topic again and again and again just t get support from peepo....
why can't that person look at him/herself in the mirror? aren't ppl who spam my blog his/her supporters? its like basically that person taking my out my rights to tell my friends my prbs and everything.. and yet she can tell her "friends" her probs? who does he/she think is? some kind of celeb? god? prince/princess? he/she is just like typical peepo like us what? why does she have to act as if he/she in a higher state than us. yes that person has his/her own life too and so am I. but the thing is why is that her "friends/supporters" can come ruining my blog and bear false statemen against me. she can tell everyone in her blog how he/she feels. and yet i don't have the rights. oh please, think before you act you havent even stepped in *****************, and yet you act as if ********, oh please!

2009-12-07T04:42:00.000-08:00

The bridge is collapsing,
im lossing my grip,
I can't hold on anymore,
I'm just getting sick,
Sick of their face,
Sick of their voice,
Sick of all these people who think they know they know me
No one can really understand,
I try not to look at their face,
it's haunting me,
I'm Sick of the ways,
The ways things were ment to be,
Sick of holding all the feelings inside,
I'm so sick of being happy for people,
When they don't even care,
Im just sick of them,
And one day,
Your going to need me,
just like i needed you,
But im going to ditch you,
Just like you ditched me,

i guess poeple are like that maybe those who don't think it is... its probably because they never felt how it is was like... what goes around comes around well no one really cares right?

hehehe.

2009-12-06T06:40:00.000-08:00

Ahh... i'm going through the same thing again. its like history repeating itself.... and it....
why can't just people think that sometimes little things matter and it makes a big difference. why can't just people think before saying something. Its like holiday, i didn't do anything bad or something i was at home, and that how lonely i am. why can't just people sometimes think about others? why is that when your sitting at home doing nothing its still your big damn fault? why can't people live in peace? why is that in the end, the ones who didn't do anything must stil get hurt? i don't understand. they said life's like a boomerang when you throw something out there it'll come back to you sometimes when it comes back it'll be far beyond what you think. its like when you wave to someone, they will wave back at you or even smile back at you. when you make people laugh, they'll make you happy or sometimes they'll love you for who you are too.... but for me it its not like boomerang.i was actually with no one this holiday and all i asked for in my mind is to have someone to be with when i get bored. why is that some people when they're given too much compliment with their peers they think they're perfect.... and when people find something wrong and told them what it is... they can't accept it? is it that really hard to understand that nobody's perfect?and if they're perfect they don't have to do anything, they don't have to learn from mistakes. i think i have to face it, theres no forever friends... and this thing didn't only happened to me twice, but thrice and i hope this will be the last one. and i think i don't really believe in happy endings...

perhaps i have become invisible?
or have i become just an figment of imagination?
they cried on my shoulders and i soaked up their tears,
asking for nothing in return, but when i need someone,
where did they all go?

hello mad world!

2009-12-05T08:03:00.000-08:00

hey homies, so today i went to marina square with mom and shopped for clothes(yay!) i missed hanging out with her and so as dad. Its like working hour when i reached mom's place around 7 pm? and she said she'll have her dinner break around 7.30 so i waited for her till 8.30. yeah, great mom -.-"... and suddenly while i was waiting i saw lots of kids. some are shouting, some crying, some behaved ones, some are playing their psp sitting anywhere... some guided by parents. i remember disliking them a lot but when you look at them properly its actually good to be one of them.. i dunno i think its because they are able to express their selves freely, they hide nothing and they are being them. they never had to go through things like typical teens has to go through like relationships with friends or whatsoever, and even of they had to go through they probably won't realize cause they have their parents or guardian to help them through and even understand what they feel. so what about us? when we go through these things sometimes or most of the time, no one understands or no one will be there to give us some piece or advice or whatever just to make us feel better.sometimes i feel like i just be one of them. but i know at this point of time i have to be independent i have to face things myself and learn from my mistakes. and sometimes learning hurts.... sometimes when i face these things alone i hope i can run away from it. But the more i try to , the more people will pull me down. so in the end you have to take everything by yourself. lonely huh? i think i may have to get used to being lonely again... hmmm... oh wellss..

mad mad world

2009-12-04T00:02:00.000-08:00

the one i trusted the most d
the one i shared my secrets the most h
the one who first gained my trust the most i
the one who said i'm her BESTIE y
the one who said she don't wanna lose her friends a
the one who she shared her secrets with
the one who helped me in times of trouble
the one who stood up for me when things aren't right our
the one who i shared laughter the most
the one who i shared tears the most f
the one who i lean on the most r
the one i respect the most i
the one i accepted for who she is e
n
d
the one who i despise the most s
the one i am angry with the most h
the one who hurt me i
the one who ruined this friendship p
the one who drift apart
the one who made me really mad e
the one who treated my me like spare tyre n
the one who judge me d
the one i hate the most s
the one i am angry with
the one I"M NOT CRY OVER here!
the one i'm sick being with!

you are angry because i threatened you friends that i'll get physical with them if they dont stop judging me and bad mouthing me!
you are angry because i accused you friend, you said i control you life? choosing for you who you wanna be with? i told you you've changed in a nicest way i can! i told whats wrong with you in a nicest way i can. i even give the the rights to choose the side you want. cause as long as your happy i'll be happy for you also. why? cause i really considered you as one of those friends whom i look up to. i mean why would suddenly someone will come to my blog and spam with those hurtful words of course i would react! somemore that spammer put your name there. you tell me, is this your way telling your friend when you disagree with somethings with her someone will spam and say hurtful words and judge as a person? i gave those spammers chance to stop but the more i give chance the more they take advantage and say more hurtful words.
its holiday i didn't call you i didn't hang out with you i never even sms you i never hang out with you though you promised me that you would one day. so waited... and there... so this is all what i'm waiting for right? you're the one who volunteered to break this friendship... you don't have the rights to do that.... cause i found out you really didn't consider me as one.

to the fcuking spammer......

2009-12-02T06:58:00.000-08:00

hey you twit, from whatever corner of earth or space you came from stop being a-hole alright?is that what you friends or parents ask you to do? to be jelous all the time? i don't really know whatever bullshit or kind of imagination you have in your head, but uh.... just wanna say, why are you being so judgemental? have i done something to you before? well. let me tell you, you ninnyhammer if you have nothing better to do here then please get your ass out cause its stinking up my page okay?or else i'll spray bescumber in your face what you're saying is a ridiculous false statement for me it all means bullshit but yeah? see yourself in the mirror yet? oh no please please the mirrors gonna crack you wanna know how stinky you are as a person smell your armpit and you'll smell a horrible smell of hircismus woaw woaw..... how does it smell? offensive body odor ain't it? better get yourself washed up alright? whatever you just said is a total buncombe.... yes you can play with me but you can't mess with me. remember that alright? if you dun wanna hear offensive words from me then dun be a loser and tell me who the hell you are whatever you gay or lesbo.... cause i'm pretty much sure you aint straight... byebye muackss... :)

just wanna say.... F*CK YOU!

2009-11-28T08:00:00.000-08:00

hey homies, didn't update blog cause nothing interesting is happening no outings or whatsoever hmmm... just watching survivor samoa the whole day and everything, today went out with anne supposedly only with her to watch 'tk in concert' but it was only "tk OPEN REHEARSAL" great -.-. but hey they sound damn good okay? then after the so called "concert" or whatever! then uhm i really dunno where to go cause kind of having fun with anne so followed her together with yap sheng, darren, jia jun and lionel? yeah then uh went to orchard to eat with trecia then i was planning of going back home straight after that then i dunno i think anne invited me to hang out with her and trecia and we walked the whole day to orchard to city hall to marina to wherever was so fun fun fun went to toys our us and played with dolls with toys? was fun fun fun anne was super hyper can? and trecia was yeah having fun but she wasn't that hyper and we always get beaten with anne (thanks for hitting my head! btw uh... it still hurts) then had dinner i didn't eat cause i'm penny-less haha. they were nice to share their drinks though, then talked about love life haha (to anne: i wasn't shocked to know haha cause during band camp it was obvious alr but i really appreciate you sharing it with me haha) anne's love life is romanedy= romantic+comedy. haha and trecia cool cause she conaservative. good good. wanna hang out with them more often cause it's so fun especially with WINX CLUB! muahaha!! okay anyways till here i cannot take anymore i'm so sleepy! byebye peepo!

i'm back!

2009-11-18T22:49:00.000-08:00

monday
had band camp which is first day met wanqi and walk...h n cab-ed to sch. then we girls slept in 4n6 classroom then we saw this mask and gloves on the teachers table and played with it so wasted lah. haha then combine combine sectionals combined. i was like so left out lah. th rest of sax memebrs was wearing section tee. i was wearing my pe shirt. the food was horrible dun wan the veggies so gave to ashikin. then went to the staff room to relax wanqi anne and geralyn watched chinese show which made me fall asleep was the first one to sleep among them.

tuesday
woke up slapped my hye won and anne early in the morning. second day was okay ah we woke up early wanqi and terecia sleep like that the both of them merely move when they were sleeping. haha the we had breakfast then combined combined sectionals. played with leaves kept on putting it on maverick's head haha and saying he's the goddest and zoey was definately blushing loh. haha just jkjk.the concert was good. played a number of wrong note. then helped maveick bring his instrument up the ava room. his saliva was all over my hand super disgusting. chat with jing min she laughed like crazy can ? especially when insulting "her" with my slang accent. haha then i bathe with jing min and zoey. i left wanqi with her friends and so as anne. then at night no one wanted to sleep. so we were like all over the place. had late night joke with yi jun jing min and zoey while waiting for anne and wanqi. then after that i was super bored then wanqi and anne finally came. played game with wanqi cause anne was unwell. then let wanqi and talk to anne for a while then i went star gazing with flute section romantic right?went to staff room was squeezing with trecia wanqi cause no place to sit apparently amos fell asleep he was snoring haha. he took a lot of space then we played cards with linus willie ryan. wanqi bang my head on the window! hey lady painful okay!? lucky got no blue black. hehe. then it was like around 2 am sang a loud happy b-day song to mrs mak! hehehe..
wednesday
last day and went home asked mr fahmi whether i could quit band and join bowling but he disagree he said he's gonna call my dad! lols. then went home alone. the reached home bathe and slept like crazy1

haizzz.....

2009-11-13T04:42:00.000-08:00

incase you get this wrong. Don't feel bad or maybe you are feeling bad. what i mean is learn how to balance. you're so much better few months before end of year. you really were. but i understnd that people chage, i really do. well you know i can't really judge you right? but sometimes you have to be quite sensitive to others you never know how they're feeling right? you may not see it but for me or someone, you are really drifting apart. and you said that you don't really hang out with us. its because you are busy but that's good to keep yourself busy during hols but when you are free yes you will hang out with "us" but once your another grp of friends call you, you're willing to ditch at anywhere in anytime. ok i have to be true to you. i was quite angry when you did that, i really was. but if you really like "them" more more than us that then that means you have to choose but obviously as far as i see you'd choose them. and oh yeah this has been going for quite a while i dun wanna let you know wat first cause i thought i was the only person who sees this. but no when i talked it out to "her" i kinda feel good because i have the same feeling as her. you don't have to know who. but i know that you know who they are already. i told you their names not because i just wanted to, its because they are someone who i can relate my feelings to was kinda relieve to know that i'm nt the only one after a few months i kept it even though sometmes the way you treat me nowadays is not nice anymore i don't feel happy anymore with that kind of treatment. i'm not saying i'm not happy with you i still am very happy when i see you around okay? i really am! and its not that i'm making you feel bad. just want you to realize. and i'm not taking out your rights to choose your friends or who you wanna be with more. you stil have your own rights for everything because its you who's in-charge of yourself, not us. but whatevr you wanna choose i'm not gonna feel sad as long as your honest with your feelings and us. i would really be happy for you as long as your happy with who you are with okay? your still my very super good friend. love yah! <3<3<3<3<3

god damn it, i'm lost.

2009-11-08T03:59:00.000-08:00

okay sorry peeps. was lazy to update for the whole week. so gonna highlight what happened.

monday
obviously didn't know that i had to come for band when i woke up around 8? i panicked and started running around the house to find phone and my hp. and then i called like 3 people to ask then yeah zoey saved my day, she said there is band! but only for seniors juniors is optional so in the end decided to sleep again. F.Y.I- i don't have my timetable i threw it away when claire lua pass the timetable my blood boiled, cause it eats 70% of my darn time! what the hell. just so you know, its holiday! so please gimme a break.

tuesday
I had to wake up early for band=.=" and seriously its ruining my holiday and plans. gosh,early in the morning so pissed alr, and when i came no one was there practically, so my blood boil again as if i my head was about to burst. Then, yina and zi chen came. so cooled down a bit then we chat then after band, was so bored so we decided to hang out. We went to Mcdonalds to eat, and then we didn't wanna go home too early so we went to tampines safra and meet aaron sim!!! there haha, long time no see for me and him. then yina and i played bowwling and the 2 guys was out to play counter strike at lan shop, so yina and i waited and we played like 4 games. so fun and whenever yina do the backswing the ball would silp off her fingers and drop on the floor lawl! haha so yeah after that we cannot wait for the 2 guys so went home with yina.

wednesday
Had class bbq and it was fantastic! i really felt intense joy there esp with my girls. haha so fun we swimmmed camwhored and everything bbq and uh.... yeah throw ice around and pouring cold water on peepo! hahah i really had fun and i didn't want the day to end. then at night it rained heavily everyone was under that shelter thinggy and liyanna and i was busy making people wet. hahaha then went home with dhiya and amanda, we walked with wei xuan and shang hai (zhen zhou) to area D or E. then we cabbed to dhiya's place there we wanted to talk at the voideck but then it was a little too late alr it was like around quarter to 10? so yup then, headed to amanda's place to shower there cause i stink alr. then we ate sushi then i went home after that reached home aroung 11 plus

thursday
had band around 10, then i was alone during sectionals and jia jun was my tutor for the day, hmmm... he is not a bad tutor actually i feel like i can play perfectly after he tutor me. haha. then this claire lua chase 1/6 people from band, and then yeah got hell load of comments from her what on earth is wrong with her man? (just so you know, you're not the conductor don't give us that kind of comments you dunno anything the school don't give you salary to give unnecessary comments to us and besides when we absent ourselves it was optional sometimes i just feel like putting one big banana right in your mouth so) then when we fall in she was very angry! i mean angry for what? she's so wanna be man. she thinks its sexy. then she shouted "DARREN! (ng) TELL ME? HAVE YOU ABSENT YOURSELF BEFORE WITHOUT MC?" she asked like 3 seniors and here comes the funny part, she asked naqib "NAQIB HAVE YOU ABSENT YOURSELF BEFORE WITHOUT ANY VALID REASON?" then naqib said "YES?" the claire lua said "TELL ME!!" the naqib have no choice but to say NO even though he has! how stupid of him. i was so pissed that that point of time that i've made my final decision, TO QUIT BAND! and join either bowling or badminton. yeah!

friday
SLACKED :D
same as yesterday and today!

till next time, GOODBYE!

liyanna!! ♥♥

2009-11-02T02:43:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to liyana yusoff aka "the violent girl" ! ♥♥
Hey liyanna, just wanna let you know incase u don't that i really had a fantastic year with you! you're so so awesome and i really love you as my friend! and i love you again a gazillion times! sometimes you might be fierce (haha) a little sensitive too. but above it all you're still awesome for me! next year i hope that even if we're not in the same class anymore, you will be still around to do crazy stuff with me. I like your hyper-ness! and you are mischievious girl that's why i la-lalove being with you. but Hey please lady don't CHANGE cause i love you just the way you are!And i'll love you 4ever friend..... i'll miss you cause we're nt gonna be in the same class anymore and just wait for your present cause right now... i'm really bankrupt and punished.

happy b-day liyanna♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

If this is what i'm gonna get from you after i changed but you just can't see and i'm trying hard to, forget about this friendship. even though you don't see or appreciate this thing i've done for u and every1, u know its fine with me. But i really think you're just acting blind
i tried so hard to maintain the patience i have for you for more a month but when you treat me like this it hurts you know? cause i always consider you as one of my trusted,closest and everything. Why do you need to prove that you are a "true friend" at first and give me this kind of treatment in the end? please lah i get hurt okay i maybe one of those easy to joke around with or not sensitive at all kind of friend, but my feelings can't be played 'm not a toy! okay? i'm a friend who needs a friend like you too! maybe its because theres loadsa people love so in the end you isolate people like me, why? don't be surprise if one day i break down in front of you! because i want u to know how you are treating me like toy like that right? the way you talk and everything changes time to time sometimes sweet but strict all the time esp nowawadys. I HOPE YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!! PLEASE!!!!!

arnold wee bing hao!

2009-10-31T00:04:00.000-07:00

hey arnold dearest guy in class..... just wanna wish you a happy birthday..don't be sad if yours will be celebrated a lil late. its just that we really want it to be a surprise.... so please.. BEWARE! haha sorry if i'm making it sound as if its scary.... we really want you to be shocked..... uhm.....
and just wanna say that.... thanks for proving to me that you are actually one true friend and you'll always there for me and thanks for being trustworthy we both know how much we'll miss each other being in the same class . Remember all those stupid things we've done through out the whole year? sometimes we both carried away with all crazy things we do in class since the mdm chew days.... haha sometimes we have misunderstanding but at the end of the day we are great friends as ever and everyday we get closer and closer as what dhiya said(if you read her blog) you know that all of us think that you are a great guy.... just wait for your present kay? but i dont really know what you want... so i think i'll just do it your way, i'll give you money instead. hahaha. thanks i was really touch when you said last time i was one of your closest friend among the girls in class i bet you don't remember but yeah i still do and xinyi too... SORRY I FORGET ABOUT HER! haha..anyways and that time when i told you that both of us will go different class and you said "never mind we're just one class away" haha.... that's so sweet of you.. i hope you don't change (don't guai lan?) haha as what always xinyi said even though i really don't see you as (guai lan) hahahaha.... always remember me loves you and as well as 1n6 haha!! so once again

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAY LITTLE GUY, ARNOLD WEE BING HAO!

cry and laugh and cry and smile and cry all the way who the hell cares anymore anyway?

2009-10-28T06:38:00.000-07:00

today was school as usual i don't need to be fined anymore but anyways, just now after second recess or something mr osman came into the class. and then i wasn't wearing proper attire then he asked me to stand and change to proper ones in the toilet then phew i thought it was going to be about the smoking issue again. haizz... then i didn't know that he actually came to the class because of me again! shit man! he was like "arrys meet me outisde now!" then after okay loh i went out the class to talk to him i thought it was going to be about that stupid attire then after that, he was like "we're the ones who passed contraband cigarette to the boys?" the i was like obviously i why on earth would i pass contraband cigarette around if i want to share some? i mean like those cigarettes i buy is legal one okay? then he was like asking whom i passed the "contraband" cigarettes to then i said i passsed it to zhen zhou then he started asking whether he's from china and why zhen zhou's name is not shanghai or beijing but it was funny though hahah.... then yeah i guess its all settled already and he actually blame me for the that and i was called "bodo" (mr osman call me) then after that he said he don't want me to become a drug pusher cause i was like one already. so yeah he said the guys need to pay for the mistake i made. I feel really guilty and at the same time sad. i feel like i dont give a damn to myself anymore. so what if i put on others first before me? and why do i get this kind of treatment in the end? i don't really understand. then after i don't know how mrs mak i found out about all this that "someone" told her about my problem but its okay cause i think that person did that simply because she cares about me and my FUTURE. so let's just say the name and that person is called "xin yi" yep.! haha... it was so unexpected i thought "D" and "S" was the one who's going to take action but it turned up to be xinyi but i still very happy at least some people still understand and care about me! i hope this won't only be a a short period of time i hope all the way man! thanks to you! then since today is the second last day i was hyper and some may even find it "NATURAL" of me. and it think they we're happy about that i guess? hopefully yes! but if only you know i cry more than i laugh now. to him- you ignore me a lot of times but i just keep on ignoring but why is that the more i ignore the more you drift away from me? you know how much i treasure you or not? i hope you know even though i don't even get half of the fantasic treament back. i hope you realize already lah. cause seriously now you are hurting me even more. whenever you are with them you isolate me i thought true friends stick together then tell me what is this kind of treatment you are showing me? if only you know how hurt i am but never mind if you want to do this to me and keep on ignoring things that i do just for you we might as well drift apart from each other but you know i cant right? so why? why ignore me and why not show just a little appreaciation although i know you helped out a lot my problems all the way?

TO DHIYA AND SIYI (xin yi amanda liyana) :)- thank you thank you thank you thank you so much. that's all i can say. words may not be enough but you know how thankful i am to have you both beside me love ya peepo. hope we can hangout some time together and just us! i wonder how fun it would be haha! thanks a lot peepo!

its time to turn myself in :(

2009-10-26T05:50:00.000-07:00

xinyi- thanks i really appreciate you being like my sister around but you are the older version one haha. anyways, uhm thanks i know you are trying hard or ALL of you are trying so hard to help me all the way and pull me up? but you know i maybe brave in terms of being in school. but, i can never be brave infront of my family. i don have the guts to tell them what i did i really don't if you are in my position i don't think you'll be able to pull off something like what you guys are asking me to do. i am sorry i am too stubborn that i think everyone around me changed but it actually me who changed. and here i go again always on the negative side of facing my OWN problems if not asking help from you guys. and i do understand the part that i am older but look at those poeple whom i mix around most of the time? hmm... maybe i could improve on that too?
love you!

dhiya- i know you are always there help out in times of troubles that i am facing and seriously when i see you guys happy you guys never fail to make my day. but sorry i got so stubborn until it reach this point where everything is going to be handle by the cops? i am sorry for the stupid things i've done. maybe when you try putting yourself in my position you'll be tempted to do these things hmmmm if only i could explan to you properly how my family treat me. i really don't know what to do. i was trying hard to change but these poeple around me now do not knw how to appreciate it or just acting blind because they don' have faith in me. i maybe very naughty at times i understnd or okay! most of the time? sorry. i promise from tomrrow onwards i'll help myself as how guys are trying to do this time. i'll listen okay? i promise but you must help really pls have faith because when there's no family there's only friends.... so i don't want my family to help since they don't have that much faith as you guys have for me! thaks dhiya i'll miss you next year hope nothing will be changed next year hor? spend time with me, with us. love you!

and thanks to

LIYANA

atiqah
shafinaz
lela
ain
aini
arnold

life life life....

2009-10-25T06:43:00.000-07:00

nothing better to do with my life anymore. See, i changed a lot. i can tell i'm just acting blind as if wow, everything is so normal. My awful life its driving me crazy. My life is like when i take part in a race just run aimlessly no direction never plan don't have any gears just run anywhere with no direction and if i trip that's it i give up don't run anymore its just a race anyway so what if i don't in first place there's always next year and in the end you'll do nothing but regret. i think that's another thing i think i'm living in a life full of regret. but i'm also not happy with how things are going at home. Ican't tell whether its me or "them" who made me like this. actually i have a choice, i can change yes. but when you do so there's still poeple who'll try to pull you down but i'm not just saying people its actually people whom are the ones closest to you i can't explain that part very well hmm.... okay uhm just tell you guys what happened just now,
I went to simei to accompany my mom to return dvd and then headed to tampines mall to but containers ,bleach and soap. and the container was actually big so how on earth is it possible to fit on the bus so my mom and i mrt-ed home and then while waitin for the train i was carry this plastic bag full of grocery it was so heavy and i started losing my temper and its also because of the hot whether even though its already dark and suppose to be cooling. i was like sweating and already losing my temper that i want to smash the grocery goods on the floor really hard then i just kept on breathing in and out deeply. then while waiting for the bus i suddenly thought of what dhiya said i almost cry again but i control it and i kept on tearing throught the whole bus-ride home then i was reallyhot tempered wheni reached home i want to cry in my room but then can't i have no mood for everything now. just want to make my terrible life peaceful. and i have to say that i get angry easily, short tempered, no mood to talk in class, no moon to take part in grp activities, no mood for party, no mood for everything. terrible isn't it? i think i need sam to help me again but the thing is that i lied to him and told him everything's fine with me and my family. i really want to have a talk with everyone in my family esp my mom(sorry) but i dont have the guts. why? cause she's my mom i don't want to hurt her feelings because there's some issues with her that i want to tell her ...... help me GOD! pls!!! pls!!!! pls!!!

hayyy......

2009-10-23T03:25:00.000-07:00

so yep.... i know everything's confirmed by mrs mak today. we all know where we're going next year. one thing that still bothers me. hmm... i hope you know. i don't dare to tell you my feelings anymore. If you think you've done something wrong, please.... don't think its you, its me okay? i'm sorry. i think i'm just a little too sad. sorry. if you're hurt with what i'm saying. please don't think you've been terrible. you've been more than great which hurts even more. not being dramatic. well i only can lean on you, you always know that don't you? everyday i tell you my problems, everyday i share new secrets and sometimes we even mess up. haha. you've been always. you really proved that you are one true friend. i love being with you, seriously. in terms of friendship lah. hahahaha.. if only time can pass slower than this i will spend time with you after school which we didn't manage to do last few months. cause i know there's some tension going on between me and your ********* gang. well. Sorry to say this, i'm gonna tell you the truth. i think i've really changed. Sorry it wasn't because of you only. because i want to be more sensitve with other people's feelings. i know sometimes i get carried away easily haha which is i know sometimes not funny anymore. Sorry if i cant stand to look at you for very long time. i really don't know why. i think i'm really ashamed and sad. i don't know what to do. sorry. i know you also can't do anything to help me with my situation. no one can. they can only say stop but they can't DO anything to stop me. i know its up to me now. sorrry if i don't even there to look at your pic i dunno that's how much i am ashamed. Sorry huh? i mean no harm. but i still love you. no matter what okay? its just that i'm just sad i just have a strong feeling you're gonna drift apart *she* and i have a strong feeling. i have more probs to tell you eh? i guess i have seek too much help from you. sorry. this is so embarrassing if i share more probs with you. i guess i will fake everything. just pretend i'm happy because when i don't. sure it will become a big thing. sorry

i'm referring to *him* not *her*

haizzz..

2009-10-22T05:19:00.000-07:00

well, my results were good, and so as the whole class, no one retained, some are going to express. i can't totally say i'm happy cause of my results. hmm... well let's put it this way. i don't like myself. Seriously i don't. i don't even know whether i'm being me. exams are over, yes, but i'm getting more sad, quiet, not so outgoing, stopped joking around, making a fool of myself. i'm so low very low. no one would ever understand i guess. not even the ones who knows me well. how i wish i'll be happy. i want to leave everything, i just feel like being more alone now. i don't even know whether i'm on the good side on the bad side. i can't tell who am i. i dunno what i;m good at anymore. and the worst thing, i can't even choose which path i want to go to. no ones proud of me. not even my family. now i think i'm the worst person. i am really very low at this point. i'm just acting as though everything's fine even they things are totally not. my counsellor always says nowadays that i'm so positive, i'm so doing well, especially in handling my problems in a very positive way. i'm sorry i lied cause i'm totally not doing okay. really sorry sam. i lied. i may look very normal outside but inside i'm so not. i'm so getting tired. i don't like school to sum it up. i dunno. i belong somewhere better than school. i just dunno where. saddest part i'm sure everything's gonna change next year. sure it will. for sure. why must i be apart from the one who i lean on the most? i don't like it. it think i only got her now. but sorry i don't think so......errrr..... everything is just so confusing. i know some wants to help me but they also can't do anything. i think its up to me. but i'm just really confuse. i wanna go somewhere peaceful now. i wanna go back to my hometown i wanna be sent back there. i don't give a damn about my stupid reputation and future i just wanna leave....... haizzzzzz
yeah. take a good look at life. unfair isn't it? they said if life is fair, you can never never have joy. i belive its true. they also said that you make your life by the choices you make and the consequences you face. it think i'm actually facing consequences but i really dunno what kind of bad choices i made. well excluding studies and *******.............. hmmm..... please god, help me, is it because i also don't have faith in him? hmm..... just **********************
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AMEN!

hey youu!!!

2009-10-20T05:35:00.000-07:00

zupp zupp. today had fun inhaling haha only eric and zhen zhou know what i mean. anyways....
today got the maths paper passed.. okay! muahaha... but not what i expected...... Zzzz...
then ict training. in the afternoon at 2.30 hehess... then had band. woots! forgotten to bring file. mr fahmi didn't scold haha.. just nag nag i guess? then.....after that stood up wanqi said my skirt got stain i didn't belive i first then when my honeeyyy... came haha (amanda hong) she told me i really have she accompany me to the toilet. and then wanqi follow ( she just cant stop following me haha she miss me very fast!) yeah babeh! haha just joking wanqi. then brought instrument home too heavy so i cabbed with wanqi. (thanks for your company laddyy..) haha... so yup now at home... going down later to inhale again.! byebyess...

............... T T ............. :DD

2009-10-15T04:40:00.000-07:00

hey homies! supp supp. yesterday we went to ecp with daphne (childhood friends/bffffffff) haha. well dunno we just went there for fun. but very very fun hahaha.... there weere 3 of us my sis daph and me. we walked for very long time there hooooo!!! very tiring can? we walked from area c and wanted to walk to area E to fing my brother but failed so we stopped at area D cause we walked for soooo verryyyy lllooonnnggg..... so tired then on the bus we camwhored. hahah cause no one at the upper deck of bus haha... so fun then when the bus was moving....i was like trying to do puch ups haha so fun leh.... but i wanted to go home already. soo tired but had a lot of crazy fun time with them.

Then today school quite fun ah. esp Apang's period Zzzz.... she becoming more and more strict now which makes the lesson quite fun now haha esp when she screams and get angry hahah! then had band after a long time almost died cause i couldn't play u kknw? but wasn't scared then treat and eat sushi with wanqi... then now at home blogging

YEAY! hahahaha.....

i dunno why i seem not to be happy. i feel so disliked by people whom i'm not close to. i really dunno i wish i could turn back time i feel really sad sad sad! it not becase of previous incident but because how is people changed nowadays....oh wells i guess that's time and not them or could it be me? i really dunno when i try to reflect i couldn't see anything i've done to harm them. well i know i should not give a shit about this but i just got me thinking and worried whenever i saw a particular person or something hmm...... i wonder why? is it because i don't go to churrch that much anymore? or is it because i simply changed? but i still have to look on the bright side. i have to remember i have so much more more more more friends who likes me and i hope no more hatred or misunderstanding or anything. i just want everything to be fine one day. just peaceful and happy......... happy like last time.........

EOY"S ITS SOO OVERR!!!!

2009-10-12T05:58:00.000-07:00

YEAY! i'm back! i'm back! hahah sorry didn't update for so long ;( was having eoy so i studied iguess? hmmm......i'm so scared to death for my science i did not study that much for it... okay well not really i studied and i only looked through the whole book once! so scary especially when i asked mrs pang for my results she said "hmm...you didn't learn" during mid-autumn so scared leh......i hope i have time machine now eh! Zzzz..........anywayzzz......i'll just tell you what happened suring mid-autumn..
i went to meet siyi to meet dhiya at parkway. hmm.....i suddenly found her very weird...i dunno why she asked me and siyi out! haha...then i ask her "hmm...i think you feel guilty thats why u invite me and siyi out and you are always with your malay gang?" muahaha.....and then she was like O.o NO!!!! hahah then we ate at mac and told her that i kinda like DBSK ahahahaha...she was like so happy she couldn't believe it and then she was like "does anyone have a voice recorder here?" hahaha!!!! Zzzzzz..... then we walked around marine parade hmmm...quite fun and then we ride on the roller coaster thinggyyy.... then my gosh!! we were shouting at timezone man they ride was fun and crazy hahaha......... then we went to school for mid-autumn it was fun...
but more fun with friends...then i carry mrs mak baby chloe ! ;) so small and tiny but heavy! haha....but she is very very very very cute! haha... then after that performances were getting boring so decided to look for some excitement so went went near the science block there hahahah then everyone was like shouting ZZzzzz...... as if something appeared in front of them tsk tsk.....they so damn noisy lah! irritating....played chapteh with yi jun and dhiya Zzzz........dhiya is better than yi jun cann!!!! he cant even make the chapter flo once! Zzzz........hahah but anywayzzz....overall was so fun...

then...tomorrow got band photo-taking gonna meet wanqi accompany her to go the market for her pic for her IC and then at 1 repert back to school and then head to scince centre. i wish i had singed up for that dragon boating lah.... science centre is sooo boring can!? Zzzzz......

now i think i want to upload videos of typhoon ketsana that hit philippines and vietnam and hopefully singapore! just kidding lah! hahah..... just go youtube whatever.........see how terrible t'was

HAPPY! ITS SO GOOS TO BE HAPPY>>>>>

2009-10-03T07:53:00.000-07:00

well i want my font to be yellow can't really see it. if i have typing error *ignore* .=.='.
okay, well i never expected this to happen. even my friends and siblings were quite *shocked* well. i dunno it all stated on that fateful day, i was on the computer and obviously started typing youtube.com and then the next thing i know, i was watching DBSK music videos and stupid video. IT WAS SO SHOCKING! i totally never expect to start appreciating k-pop singers. well not really only for one particular band called DBSK which i hated so badly. and now i appreciate their songs. what on earth is happening to me? i mean up to now, this period of time i still can believe why among all the k-pop singers why would i hae a particular band so much and in the end ending up liking them! aiyoo!! tsk tsk! you think this is right?! wadeva! i dont give a damn anymore I LIKE THEM! OKAY!?

OH EMMM GEEE!!!! i just said i LIKE THEM! aiya wadever okay DHIYA I LOST TO YOU AGAIN! what does this mean? i mean seriously tell me!! i cant keep on losing to you right?!muhahaha!!! anyways i upload some memories when i was very cute and young! nyahaha!!!! aww sh!t its in my moms account upload it next time.....sorry peeps next alrightsss??? so for now i fly to my bed now goodnights! *fly kisses* muahaha!! you can reject if you want muahaha

smile

2009-09-20T18:44:00.000-07:00

postng my heartaches is really is stressing and tiring. so now, i'll just update the things that happenned during the past few weeks or days. id on't remember what happened eh ? seriously. ok during maths remedial dhiya and i sang liked crazy and loud in the class with speakers muahaha.....Apang quite retard leh. totally dunno what's going on. haha! so after that scolding scolding because lost wallaet and ezlink card. then must sign repoet book and i almost died!phew! but in the end my hp laptop ipod and everything got confiscated i really have a terrible life now. hope can get support from ppl cause its not very easy! especially what i heard from dhiya when i asked her what did "she" tell you? it really broke my heart. so unappreciated man! now i don't knw whether to belive the old saying" life is like a boomerang" " when you throw something out there it will be back to you even more. i threw everything? and i got T_T yep yep. so learned not to be so kind also haizZ....never mind i just need to smile and everything is fine i guess? by tuesday if it turns out positive or negative? whatever happens i'll leave it to god? yep.planning of going to church more often.. it will probably help me! AMEN! i just have to give everything my widest smile! YEAH

total shockerz

2009-09-19T05:48:00.000-07:00

WTH? yah i am stupid. stupid enough to follow ppl like you who threw friends away when they are irritating so much for being down to earth and in the end just be walked over!. but i am lucky, lucky enough not to get too close to you like best friend. and the old saying is true there's no forever friends. you took so much advantage as though every single one of your friends now will always be there for you. someday you'll know how it feels. someday you'll realize. i don't give a shit anymore. if you think i'm the bad guy then so be it. i learned not to give to much to your friends. i understand th meaning of "balance" and don't drag ppl in because its none of their business i did not do nothing to them. pls grow up too! we're quits alright?your childish i'm childish what you doing to me is pointless and you i'm doing is pointless. understand? and don't look at dhiya like she owes all of your sec 2 gang a damn thing. she is just being kind and being a true friend. and attract other ppl? most of them say its not true is they are attracted to me one! HAHAHA.....
but at the end of the day i wanna thank you. i guess i found myself already and i really learned a lot of things from you. thanks you and i'm serious THANK YOU!

SMILE...... :((

2009-09-18T04:13:00.004-07:00

i don't deserve this kind of treatment, attention seeker huh? so what's so bad about being an attention seeker? thought you know me so well. i guess its all wrong. you don't know how my family treat me at home and how they changed. i always lean on you first, whenever i'm so down. i wasnt scared to do anything when i'm with you its always fun to be with you until i get carried away maybe thats why i go crazy but in the end of the day what? the ones who give you laughter will be the ones that suffer in the end. you know when you have these bad points? i ignore them, why? i know you can change and the way i see you how treat your friends and how friendly and lovable you were. i look up to you a lot. whenever i see you hyper already did you made my day. being kind as i know pple say, is not good when its too much its like a poison it almost killed me. but fortunately it just broke my heart. i bet you never put yourself into others shoe before you judge them. have you ever heard me say " you so ugly" or " i dont like you, you changed" the answer is NO! i never did that. i never want you to get hurt. what's happening now? its only i waste of time and energy. at the end of the day its not all worth it to get angry back. i hope your satisfie, i thought i was only dreaming or i hope i was only dreaming i want to wake up so badlly. its hard to tak this thing out of my mind. and its now a barrier and big barrier to do things i want to do. you what is worst being a atttetion seeker ar a liar and a betrayer? and one more thing, dont drag those who are close to you. they have absolutely nothing to do with this. how would you feel if you met someone who you think is a good role model of being a true friend and suddenly you realize she is betraying you? of course you'd feel used and shocked won't you? try putting yourself in a kind of situation that i'm haveng now. lets switch life for a while. so you'll know how it hurts to the core (J)

how about you? "erm i'll just forgive you" those were the last words that was sent by via sms from you. i felt happy. but. the next day i saw you? i realize everything is actually fake! its hurts to the core to. but i have to bare with it. as you know i bare with it for as long as i can! until it hurts already! you made me look stupid! i did not know being too much of a joker would cause me so much pain too, i guess i loved you too. NO. i LOVED YOU. but you did not appreciate it. now, go away. you really think i deserve this kind if treatment? i almost beg on my knees while i was following your friends. but she just kept on running away. it made me look like an idiot too. did you try putting yourself into other pple's shoes too. if only you know how it feels. oh yeah one moer thing too, when you saw me cry begging for forgiveness which actually was not right, how could you stand to laugh. she said i was an attetion seeker, you should have seen the show i've made just now. you could have laughed even more. and i could have been hurt too. no, actually i was very hurt. you dd not care thanks a lot! if you were there while i was doing my show infront of those ppl from 4th floor to 1st floor you would have thanked me too.(L)

Hey you, hi you've been a good friend i enjoyes hanging out with you too. t'was so fun ithought you were trustworthy too. what kills me me is to see u lie and betray i called you and asked " are with (J) and (L) ? and then you said " no i am alone now" oh really? you were? and then i was at the 4th floor coridor just to see you with them. have i done something to you before? why did you betray me? was i a bad company? all the while i did not know i was stupid enough to trust you. it hurts too cause i've never done anything to you and yet you have the guts to treat me like . we really looked stupid did not we? HAHA! its funny how you all see my cry. don't worry i am sure that's the last joke that will ever make you laugh to see my distaught face and see me cry.

THANKS A LOT! I LEARNED A LOT!

GOODBYE, lets swallow all the memories together!

SMILE...... :((

2009-09-18T04:13:00.003-07:00

SMILE...... :((

2009-09-18T04:13:00.001-07:00

random random random!

2009-09-14T07:26:00.001-07:00

i want to cry lah! what is this drifting away from the ones i love! i did not know i would not be able to handle this. i cant even control my emotions already! i want to cry. did i change or what? i really dunno! the i wanna set things right and i'm sure you all want too! but how are we going to do so if we dont even talk to each other and treat one another as if we are same kind of strangers? can we stop doing this thing already everything has change! did you even notice? i bet you noticed but why is what your acting as if you don't care? how about me i'm left aside? i bet you did not think i'll be lonely and do you know how difficult it is to be lonely? as in lonely meaning your love ones leave you alone.whereas we should be hanging out together, caring for each other, having fun together and messing up? do you guys even know how much i miss those days and how much i want it back? why do we need to get to the point where one of us must get hurt? you remember how it started and how much we had back those days? but now what? just because i guess i made a mistake, everything will just change because of this? its what i did to myself not to you but i guess it made you feel it too but i was stubborn i did not care I AM SORRY! A MILLIONS TIMES! I REPEAT! I AM SORRY! but did you guys even think how lonely i was and hurt that very day?

look i am not angry or anything...... i just feel really sad! really very very sad! we can talk this over anytime.
c'mon , lets just set things right we don't want this to get worse don't we?
remember we always loved it whenever when we are together!

hey homies

2009-09-14T07:07:00.000-07:00

waddup ladies. i'm very bored nothing much to study. i guess its been ages since the last time i updated! o.0 haizz...but great news! i've c-box now! so tag tag tag tag! always alright?
school's great was not late everything perfectly fine haha. today tripped xinyi a bit with dhiya and some boys like arnold and shazani.hahah ok so let me high light what what we did to xinyi today

arnold took her mirror and vandalize it
snatched her place sat on it and then i vandalize her table and wrote xinyi love arnold forver
then she had hard time getting back her precious mirror from arnold
i took her wwallet and then snatched all the money inside distrubuted to the boys and shaz
shaz took $2 from her and never returned it back
when she managed to take her mirror from arnold she want to sit down i pulled chair backwards and *BOOM*!
hey butt smashed on the floor muahaha!!! dhiya and i laughed at her she did not even get pissed or anything
hahaha!! anyways i want to uppload pics for the first time i dun have any latest today so upload the ols ones which i think nobody had seen before haha!! sorry blogger's not loadin properly so i'll just upload pics another time

i feel so shit heads!

2009-09-05T23:43:00.000-07:00

Hard work pays off in the future, laziness pays off now

2009-09-05T08:39:00.000-07:00

Sadly my days have been so boring haizz.....ibut EOY is like few weeks from now and i can't do nothing but stare at the calendar and do count down. I have no interest in studying now, though i wanted to go to express so badly. I dunno whats so good about it but i guess i'll cry my painless heart out if i wouldn't make it. so moving on, family problems finally gone! so everything's back to normal except for the fact that i'm still lazy and its compulsory for me to do house chores and not remembering i if have done one of it yet. ok so back from going to express, if i ever wouldn't make it i think i'll shoose to be bum, ok now so i have 3 choices of them is to be hmm......musician?athelete?or maybe alcoholic woman? i think being alcoholic is cool! muahaha! so why did i say so? "When we drink, we get drunk. When we get drunk, we fall asleep. When we fall asleep, we commit no sin. When we commit no sin, we go to heaven. Sooooo, let's all get drunk and go to heaven!"yes! muahahaha.......actually this was suppose to be yesterdays post but, my brainless sis needed to use for some piece oh shit. ok so uhm uhm uhm uhm,,,,WHAT?! oh i know i remeber i need to go church later!

HAPPY B-day wanqi

2009-09-01T02:01:00.000-07:00

uhm i think 1st-ly just wish wanqi happy b-day. i hope she'll stay as a happy girl forever hehehe...i gave her keychain its actually her initial and forgot to remove the price tag. hehe.and also a pirate pig i find it cute. (cuter then her) haha! she said she liked to thats why she rated it 5.0/10 hahah joking joking! and s everything cost me below $30 so my best friend jordan paid for everything! HE"S SO NICE.SO DOWN TO EARTH.
yesterday, celebrated teachers day! so fun! except for the stupid dancing. t'was so boring some more we stand through out the whole thing until we finished everthing which took us for 1h-1.5h. its so annoying! then after that had the teachers day celebration concert!
So fun men! it was total shockers to see trecia dance! i mean i never thought she'd turn up very hot! she's really good in dancing! it even made my hair stand man! woaw so unforgettable! haha GO TRECIA!(i dun really know how to spell her name)
after that, went back to primary school! woaw so fun now i know how it feels like to be those like xinyi (TMS) when she graduated and visit her primary school. was even more excited to see friends than teachers so i called it "friend's day" instead of "teacher's day" so in the end didnt really got the chance to meet the teachers. only friends. then hang out with some old friends masyitah and her friends forgot the name alr (sorry) and haida and uhm uhm uhm...afiqah! ah ah ! afiqah! yeah! so went back home.
then now, waiting for daphne childhood friends just moved here yesterday. COOL! anyways til here! bye peeps!

hellos :D

2009-08-27T04:13:00.001-07:00

today hor.....was rather sad cause my results are very dissapointing to see....i feel very weak whenever i remember especially my maths . maths results really deprove a lot...from distinction to U-grade not fail but U! haiZzz.....i really want to get distinction for all subject! sob sob.

then just now during music all the way til maths lesson.....dhiya(bestie) heart was broken it's confidential so yup i cant say it .....but as long as i'm around she should feel much better then.....i will
support you all the way bestie! promise! then we had remedial then mrs pang dunno why suddenly
the mood was very good! released us half hour earlier i really dunno why.thanks mrs pang

then after remedial reported for band! haha i thought gonna be boring cause my fahmi said that there's junior combine (BORING!!) haiZ....then after few minutes had sectionals! YEAYS!!!
so fun haha played less with the rest of the girls.then camwhored with wanqi and AnnnNEee....hahaha
so fun fun fun! then walked back home with wanqi

thats all! bye!
tomorow got band again YEY!!! (i want C-BOX!!!) argh!!!

you scumbags!!!

2009-08-15T08:43:00.000-07:00

hey you guys know what i've had enough when everyone's at home now my life would turn to hell. you guys just pls interfiring in my life its not as if you know me so well and i never tell my my deepest secrets cause i know you'll just think its is such a typical teenager life that you guys should not bother even about my own feelings. you will confront me about this problem and you dont even bother to know how it feels when you say it in a diffrent way! ans it really sucks to tell cause only my friends understand me and only GOD understand so stop acting as though you can solve it in your freaking way ok! because you dont know anything! your not even at home 24 hours and yet you say things like "you started it 1st" or " you do that a lot of time on others basically its karma" and "why dont you think of what you've done before before argguing with (her)" and you(her) stop saying that i changed my attitude because okay! you too dont know anything and pls stop acting like you're some kind of pro person who can solve everyones problem i mean who are you to know every problem that i have you only my ****** so you have your own i have my own you solve it your way i'll solve it my way! so shut up and stop complaining as though and talk as though you were'nt so dirty before ! because of you i feel bad ifeel like smashing the laptop on your face but i need to relax! it will only make situations worse! you see now! i'll leave if i cant do anything i wont force it to be fixed so easily. so i'll leave it first and see how! you get it?

ouch pain pain pain!

2009-08-06T05:14:00.000-07:00

hi! holy crap! as in HOLY fcuking CRAP! today after lesson was quite fun despite the fact that i had to go to the dentist to get my filling done! and then otw there i was very excited see the doctor again quite fun cause he he bacteria was friendly wahaha. and he is charming too! but then he he had to remove the bacteria inside my tooth and clean it up.
and guess what? the bacteria has been there for about 2 years and it go worse! so it reached until the roots there and its really extremely painful haizZ he inject me 2 times just to make it numb so that i wont feel anything while he's trying to remove the bacteria! but failed! because i can still the pain even though half of my mouth is so numb! and then after that i had band and then had to do tuning! gosh! but i cant cause my mouth is still numb! haiZzz so need to shout in front of band mates to mr fahmi that i khant pray my mouf ish numm! what the heck i talk like drunk even my senior was teasing me about it and the other sections especially hor kuan and maverick i tell you they gonna pay for that! so now hor kuan owe me one bubble tea! muahaha!!!! and then for a maverick a punch from me! then we went to katong school to rehearse for tomorrow performance haizz..... during rehearsal my tooh ache like fcuk its almost unbearable like i wanted to cry already! ouch ouch ouch ouch! haizzz....but no choice had to play still tomorrow..!..!! oh yeah forgot to tell hahah just now brought water bomb to school and then played with jess gang in the canteen! muahaha very fun sia especialy when people sabo jess hahah she run around like crazy and then kao ri and i did boob connection hahaha!!!! thats all peeps bye!

mixed emotions....and feelings.....

2009-08-03T02:34:00.000-07:00

hey peeps.....now i'm really gonna try my best to update my blog as often. Today peeps, you know what? haha it was very fun and i never though that maths period would be so much fun today! i always thought it was boring haha....but then we did angles which i HATE! and then this wei xuan my classmate was called up to do the angle on the board and then haha he did not knw what he was doing he was totally unsure and then when he turned his expression was so ridiculous that made me burst out of laughter through out the whole period which set dhiya to in tears. Hahaha and then alice pang was also laughing haha well i dont want to tell how th expression looked like because its funnier when you see it in person. then, after school dhiya liyanna amanda siyi rita jing min went to my house to edit the class video cause submission ends this week which is quite impossible to finish because we've got hell load of things to do and i'm not feeling stressed at all. "yays!" then we chatted in the living room and then liyanna said that i speak like american? hahah..! but its true. and all the while i thought i sound as though i am speaking singlish well...thats i thougt i sounded when i speak. then after that they went home ;( i want to upload picz now....but then I ?STILL DUNNO HOW UPLOAD PIC.....WHUTTA LOOOSSSHHHEERRRRRR1!!!!!!!

grrr.....

2009-07-27T05:25:00.000-07:00

haiz....ok sorry again peeps if i did not update bloggies.....
haiizzz.. i just think that i would not afford to call a friends using handphone
so i just wanna blog my probs.....haiZz.

ok how should i start....uhm...ok first last few weeks i thougt my class friends had been ignoring
but suddenly i realise that i should not jump to conclusions...haiz.....i did not think about the probs that they having too
and stress.....but then again, everyone of us is stress also right? haha.! but how come they take thinks too seriously
and how come i can just laugh over problems i'm having is it because they have more than me or is it just because there is
no way on earth i could possibly be serious for long?

but whatever it is again peeps i should not worry cause they're not that only one that i can lean on to.
i have more but its just that they are closer to my heart and i have a family? grrr.....
(speaking of family)

i've been really pissed with my dad for the past few days. he is being sensitive man i mean sensitive all the time!
grrr...but OMG again i need to think of why is he being sensitive like is there something wrong or is there something wrong WITH HIM
but whatever it is i think i can forget it easily cause i take myself as an easy forgiving person. haha uhm

what about crazy things i've done today?

hmmm...ok after school retake 2.4 kn run. and then saw jess (and its true that i missed you a lot!) i dunno why but jess seemed
to stepped in my heart already. haha....jolene and the rest of the gang they know who they are! haha

tsk tsk....ok why am i being dramatic?.........haha..

ok so yeah after school i saw her with madeline playing cards.... yup fun (for them) i was no involve ony like once? whatever
so yeah madeline of course can't stand the way she laugh! haha...i really want to just shoot inhaler inside her mouth whenever she laugh
hahahahah! then after that jess and her another gang of peeps when for the sex talk and then madeline and i watied for about an hour then played in ISH with arnold and jess badminton and basketball. hahah.!!! and madeline she is very proud to score a few times when her opponents was taking a break haha!!! funny thang!!! hahahaha k that all peeps

bye loh!

uhmm..

2009-07-08T07:13:00.000-07:00

today did not come to school i was having migrane stomach cramps, head ache then in the morning dad asked "dont you have sch today?" then i said "i do, but i'm sick so i cant make it today" then he just left my room. just like that. then i was like suffering in pain! so there no reason to be happy cause i stayed at home and then ouch here ouch there.....walk here and walk there......lalala......
scenario went on and on till 3 or 4 pm? then.........i watched micheal jackson final goodbye.!
my eyes still big big! i still cant believe he is gone.?! then the part where her children ended the "last" show with stament "i love you so much" and there they are carrying is coffin out........it was sad moment he was suppose to be dancing making ppl go crazy/fanatic over him.....not seeing him lying in his coffin dead no heart beat.! so yeah then while i was waatching jolene woman sms-ed me
and told to get well when she found out from someone lalala i did not came to school.......how sweet of her!

so yeah thats it for todayhahaha....bye

happy biethday !!! yue rong!!!1

2009-07-06T04:14:00.000-07:00

haiz...sorry guys if i did not post for 3 days haha.. reason?
i was so tired. not because of studies but cause i'm i keep on staying back in school to play
with yue rong limm min or jolene or jess...or anyone.... so i'll just tell you guys what happen for the past 3 days.....

thursday:
we celebrated yue rong's 14th birthday and it rocked to the max!!!!!!
so while in school waiting for people that she invited at the canteen.....
then we waited for so long cause the night before we decided to go
to the ktv to sing....so for me and jess and i think the rest its on fine
but then yue rong said she wanted to make her birthda memorable
so sec twos were deciding where to go untill 2 something which was
actually the time to for us to leave and go to ktv cuse we are running
out of time!!!!!! but then i dunno what is so hard aking up your mind!
hahaha!! so yeah itts too late and then we waliked to the bbt shop all
the way STILL deciding where to go then finally decided to go to vivo
city and watch ice age 3. but for me it was 80/100 cause we never watch 3d
we only watched the normal one and....oh yeah ppl that yue rong invited are
geraldine, madeline, jess, lim min, jolene, obviosly myself and yue rong herself
we took mrt to vivo and on the train me and jess madeline think that yue rong is
PATHETIC haha.....because she was trying to make me and madeline laugh
with her lame/not funny at all jokez!!!.......but of course madeline and
i laughed lah! but not because of her jokes.....but because she really look hilarious
trying to make me and madeline laughh!!!!!! haha...!! then when we reached vivo
we walked and walkeed trying to find the cinema and then decided to have a snack
for a while then all of us went to subway
then jess and madeline bought cookies which tasted yummy!!!
then jalan again to the cinema and then we founf it bought ticket
and still cant make up mind whether we watch ice age 3d or just the normal ones.
hahahah.......then while wating for lemon and woman.
we went to 7 11 to buy foood and sneak it into the cinema! haha..
then WOAW! men during advetisments yue rong asked me cause she was
sitting beside whther i talk a lot when watching a movie and i i said yes
cause she told me that she also talks a lot in the cinema! hahaha
then!!! WALAW!!!... i did not expect she will talk talk a lot more than
expected sia!! then gerlaldine cant just stop laughing through out the whole
movie !!! lols....then i will start to bursst laughter in the cinema at the not so
funny part and then i will ask the rest "funny meh?" haha then everyone will
laugh again ahahaha!!!!!
then woman beside me she is quite bored watching the movie hahha
(i go bring her next time see sex movie m18 then she know lah!!!!!) jkjk

so she borrowed my itouch and played egg again then movie finished
then we went to the toilet and then while i was inside siting peacefully
doing my business.. i saw a d0p0d its like a i phone then its blue in colour
then......went tout very fast and then told the rest of the gang that i saw
one very very nice handphone then everyone started saying
"you bluff ah! that one is yours lah!) haha.....then i said

"its not trust me (took out my handphone) this is mine!"
then everyone started laughing again cause my handphone realy
looked pathetic hahah!!!! then yeah ilim min volunteered to call the owner
then she was so relived hha
after went skypark to camwhore
then made everyone laugh haha!!!
then madeline laughing like she's out
of breath already hahah she's
"my throat pain already!"" haha
so went back home
thats it loh! haha

byebye tomorrow post about friday!

NEW BLOGGY!!!!

2009-07-01T04:35:00.000-07:00

so here is my newest and coolest blog with its newest name
and my blogs name is soo cool.....for those who think booger is disgusting.
So today i have nothing much to say did my daily routine and so on..
met new friends and home had to stay for a week in TAF cause i gain 1 KG.
and uhm..?? i think yeah! thats all amigas...... ..i'll to go to my friends blog and
ask them to just relink me....thats all for today ....;)

LOVE
arrys