nothing better to do with my life anymore. See, i changed a lot. i can tell i'm just acting blind as if wow, everything is so normal. My awful life its driving me crazy. My life is like when i take part in a race just run aimlessly no direction never plan don't have any gears just run anywhere with no direction and if i trip that's it i give up don't run anymore its just a race anyway so what if i don't in first place there's always next year and in the end you'll do nothing but regret. i think that's another thing i think i'm living in a life full of regret. but i'm also not happy with how things are going at home. Ican't tell whether its me or "them" who made me like this. actually i have a choice, i can change yes. but when you do so there's still poeple who'll try to pull you down but i'm not just saying people its actually people whom are the ones closest to you i can't explain that part very well hmm.... okay uhm just tell you guys what happened just now, I went to simei to accompany my mom to return dvd and then headed to tampines mall to but containers ,bleach and soap. and the container was actually big so how on earth is it possible to fit on the bus so my mom and i mrt-ed home and then while waitin for the train i was carry this plastic bag full of grocery it was so heavy and i started losing my temper and its also because of the hot whether even though its already dark and suppose to be cooling. i was like sweating and already losing my temper that i want to smash the grocery goods on the floor really hard then i just kept on breathing in and out deeply. then while waiting for the bus i suddenly thought of what dhiya said i almost cry again but i control it and i kept on tearing throught the whole bus-ride home then i was reallyhot tempered wheni reached home i want to cry in my room but then can't i have no mood for everything now. just want to make my terrible life peaceful. and i have to say that i get angry easily, short tempered, no mood to talk in class, no moon to take part in grp activities, no mood for party, no mood for everything. terrible isn't it? i think i need sam to help me again but the thing is that i lied to him and told him everything's fine with me and my family. i really want to have a talk with everyone in my family esp my mom(sorry) but i dont have the guts. why? cause she's my mom i don't want to hurt her feelings because there's some issues with her that i want to tell her ...... help me GOD! pls!!! pls!!!! pls!!!
SHUDDUP! (!)
Arrys Louvelle Santiago
Age:16
Birthday:25/04/1994
Currently studying in ,
Bedok View Sec.
Previous schools: OLSHS Fengshan pri
Hate me? DIE MOVEAWAY MAN!
Riddles :]
Cravings
Not to drift apart from friends
New bag
New handphone
More applications for i-pod
Not more hairy on my upper-lips =)
Zit-free face
Get license before 18! HAHA!
New DSLR camera
New computer
Own room
Rainbow Braces :]
Get my tooth done~decay filling
New watch
Loads of crap
New pet
Change my lifestlye!
More $$
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