Saturday, December 5, 2009 at 8:03 AM
hey homies, so today i went to marina square with mom and shopped for clothes(yay!) i missed hanging out with her and so as dad. Its like working hour when i reached mom's place around 7 pm? and she said she'll have her dinner break around 7.30 so i waited for her till 8.30. yeah, great mom -.-"... and suddenly while i was waiting i saw lots of kids. some are shouting, some crying, some behaved ones, some are playing their psp sitting anywhere... some guided by parents. i remember disliking them a lot but when you look at them properly its actually good to be one of them.. i dunno i think its because they are able to express their selves freely, they hide nothing and they are being them. they never had to go through things like typical teens has to go through like relationships with friends or whatsoever, and even of they had to go through they probably won't realize cause they have their parents or guardian to help them through and even understand what they feel. so what about us? when we go through these things sometimes or most of the time, no one understands or no one will be there to give us some piece or advice or whatever just to make us feel better.sometimes i feel like i just be one of them. but i know at this point of time i have to be independent i have to face things myself and learn from my mistakes. and sometimes learning hurts.... sometimes when i face these things alone i hope i can run away from it. But the more i try to , the more people will pull me down. so in the end you have to take everything by yourself. lonely huh? i think i may have to get used to being lonely again... hmmm... oh wellss..